Belong to Me

When good and bad
Came knocking on the door
My head got confused
So confused.

When all the words in the dictionary
Could not explain how I felt
I didn't say anything
Nothing at all.

The city lights reflected in the water
And that's when my tears would start to fall.

Then you walked in
And love was walking with you
You invited me in and said,
"Belong to me"
And I did.
And now everyday feels like Sunday.

Rise and shine, it's a new day
And if today be sweet
Just like yesterday
Forgive me.

'Cause when the leaves
Start to fall
I won't be able to hide the smile
That creeps onto my face.

The city lights reflected in the water
And that's when my tears would start to fall.

Then you walked in
And love was walking with you
You invited me and said,
"Belong to me"
And I did.
And now everyday feels like Sunday.

And so I will remember
That first hour I believed
The moment I sent a promise to the moon
To always hold on
Never give up
Never let go.



The orphanage was so much fun! They have improved tremendously, in my opinion. I was so shocked to see the kids sitting at tables eating their food from their own bowls with their own spoons, instead of sitting in a circle on the floor being fed to by a shouting Chinese lady with the same spoon. They don't look the kids in a room with no toys like they used to either. The door is open, they have a few toys to play with and when someone gets into a fight with another, they simply go tell one of the grownups who then comes in to scold the child, instead of just sitting on the floor and crying until something interesting catches their eye. A few of the kids even said "sorry" to each other!
There were a couple new kids that I haven't seen before, including a tiny baby I thought was a girl until I changed HIS diaper......

I even got bullied by a little sprout today... I think he's less than two years old and I was cooing at him cuz he's so adorable and then he comes up to me and hits me in the face with a toy thing so my lip starts bleeding.

I would have to say that today started out really shitty, but ended fantastically. I'm tired but happy.

It's only 9:03 pm, but I think I'm going to sleep soon.....

Claustrophobia

And suddenly
I can't stay in this room
The walls are closing in
I find it hard to breathe

The window disappears
The door disappears
I reach up and find
That I can touch the ceiling.

It's right above my head.

'Cause every time we have this fight
Somewhere along the way
You stop listening to what I say
And you keep going
Yeah...
And I'm claustrophobic
Yeah...
I'm claustrophobic

Now I can't move
It's like I'm in a straight-jacket
My feet are tied down

There's a ringing in my ears
Screaming in my head.

'Cause every time we have this fight
Somewhere along the way
You stop listening to what I say
And you keep going
Yeah...
And I'm claustrophobic
Yeah...
I'm claustrophobic

My mouth doesn't move
And I try to focus
On the words you are saying
There are so many
Coming out so fast.

I'm lost now
So lost
You've lost me
And that's just the way it goes.

'Cause every time we have this fight
Somewhere along the way
You stop listening to what I say
And you keep going
Yeah...
And I'm claustrophobic
Yeah...
I'm claustrophobic



This is actually a song! I'm so proud of myself. I don't think the words are particularly good and there's really no point to this thing, but I'm glad I figured out a tune for it and I have the chords figured out on the piano and everything. It even has an obvious chorus! Yei me, hey?

It's been way too long since I posted something here. I'm not happy with myself. A lot has happened. Nothing really significant, or worth writing here, though, so it's all good.

I'll be going to the orphanage tomorrow with Ub and Esther, and I'm excited because it's been way too long, but at the same time, I really wish Lis was going too. It never feels the same without her. But her dad doesn't seem to understand the importance of seeing these kids regularly, so she's not allowed to go, unfortunately.

I shall sleep now. Good night.