Dreams

Last night we had a talk
About where we stood.
I don't know how it happened.
You have your life
And I have mine
So why should we be discussing them
With each other?
You said, "I thought we were in love"
And when I told you I still love you
You laughed.
When you remembered her
Your smile was gone.

And you realized you're tied down
To the ground
Watching me spread my wings and fly
Telling you to come along with me.

By the end of our talk
At the end of the night
You walked away defeated
And I walked away
Knowing that you still loved me.

Suddenly I woke up.
It had all been a dream.
I didn't see your smile
Your eyes
Your hands.
I didn't hear your voice
And I'm still wondering where we stand.
Too afraid to ask you where we stand.
Afraid of your answer.

I'm tired of questions
Tired of wondering.
I'm tired of being let down
Tired of hurting.

I wish I could live in my dreams sometimes
To let go of reality sometimes.
Where nothing makes sense
And your emotions aren't real.
There's no need to worry
Because what you see isn't happening.

I fear I'm not strong enough
To face the future
But I've never been the one
To take the easy way out.



So, I don't think it ends like that, but I haven't been hit with anything else to go with it... Maybe someday it'll come.
I watched "Changeling" with Lisa today. The story of the movie is true and horrible, but I am now a big fan of Angelina Jolie. The way she lived into her character in the movie, the way she acted it... It made a big difference to the movie. I doubt it would have been as good if she hadn't acted in it as the main character. She made it so believable, like she actually did lose her son. I mean, how many kids does she have? 7? So I guess it was easy for her to imagine her son suddenly going missing and how she would react and act... Blah blah blah. I should be a critic.

I am so sleepy. I have no idea why.
I'm going to sleep now.
Until tomorrow...